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Book Review: I Killed Zoe Spanos by Kit Frick

I killed Zoe Spanos

Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the publisher, Simon and Schuster Children’s Publishing,ย  via Netgalley for an honest review.

Genre: YA/Contemporary/Mystery/Thriller

Plot: What happened to Zoe won’t stay buried…

When Anna Cicconi arrives to the small Hamptons village of Herron Mills for a summer nanny gig, she has high hopes for a fresh start. What she finds instead is a community on edge after the disappearance of Zoe Spanos, a local girl who has been missing since New Year’s Eve. Anna bears an eerie resemblance to Zoe, and her mere presence in town stirs up still-raw feelings about the unsolved case. As Anna delves deeper into the mystery, stepping further and further into Zoe’s life, she becomes increasingly convinced that she and Zoe are connected–and that she knows what happened to her.

Two months later, Zoe’s body is found in a nearby lake, and Anna is charged with manslaughter. But Anna’s confession is riddled with holes, and Martina Green, teen host of the Missing Zoe podcast, isn’t satisfied. Did Anna really kill Zoe? And if not, can Martina’s podcast uncover the truth?ย 

Opinion:

“๐‘พ๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐๐จ ๐’š๐’๐’– ๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“, ๐‘จ๐’๐’๐’‚?”

“๐‘ฐ ๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’‚๐’•๐’†๐’“. ๐‘ฐ๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’‚๐’š ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’…๐’–๐’๐’, ๐’๐’Š๐’Œ๐’† ๐’‚๐’ ๐’๐’๐’… ๐’„๐’‚๐’“ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’‘๐’‚๐’Š๐’๐’• ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’ ๐’๐’‡๐’‡. ๐‘ฐ ๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“ ๐’Œ๐’๐’†๐’†๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’๐’Œ, ๐’”๐’•๐’‚๐’“๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’‚๐’„๐’“๐’๐’”๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’”๐’–๐’“๐’‡๐’‚๐’„๐’† ๐’‚๐’‡๐’•๐’†๐’“ ๐’”๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’…๐’๐’˜๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’†. ๐‘ฐ ๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“ ๐’‰๐’๐’˜ ๐’„๐’๐’๐’… ๐’Š๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•, ๐’‰๐’๐’˜ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’… ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’”๐’‰๐’‚๐’“๐’‘ ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’˜๐’†๐’• ๐’‚๐’ˆ๐’‚๐’Š๐’๐’”๐’• ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’„๐’‰๐’†๐’†๐’Œ๐’”.

๐‘ด๐’๐’”๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐’‚๐’๐’, ๐‘ฐ ๐’“๐’†๐’Ž๐’†๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’ˆ๐’–๐’Š๐’๐’•, ๐’‰๐’๐’˜ ๐’Š๐’• ๐’„๐’“๐’–๐’”๐’‰๐’†๐’… ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‚๐’Š๐’“ ๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’๐’–๐’๐’ˆ๐’”.”

Damn.

What a whirlwind of wild this little beauty turned out to be.

I Killed Zoe Spanos is told from two POVsAnna Cicconi, the main lead and prime suspect in the disappearance and murder of Zoe after a shocking confession, and Martina Green, a friend of Zoe’s younger sister with aspiring journalistic dreams and a promise to find out what really happened. The story flips between the present and two months prior, before Anna confesses to killing Zoe. It documents Anna’s time in the Hamptons working as a nanny for the summer for a prominent family, how she discovers and learns about the disappearance of Zoe Spanos, and how she eventually confesses to killing her.

Confused?

As you should be.

“๐‘ด๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐‘ฐ ๐’•๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’Š๐’•’๐’” ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’”๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’๐’–๐’๐’… ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’•๐’†๐’…. ๐‘ด๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’•๐’“๐’š๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’•๐’ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’Œ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•.”

Anna is from Bay Ridge in Brooklyn where she has spent way too much time drinking heavily and taking party favors, in the hopes that her mother might pay attention to her. But Anna wants to change. She wants a break from the relentless fog and partying, so she takes a summer job in the Hamptons. But upon arriving to this new place, she learns of the odd disappearance of a girl named Zoe Spanos. On New Years Eve, Zoe vanished without a trace. With little clues as to what had happened to her, and even less motive for foul play.

But what Anna quickly learns upon arriving in the Hamptons, is that she bares a striking and eerie resemblance to Zoe. Some would say, an almost identical resemblance.

“๐‘ด๐’‚๐’Œ๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•?” ๐‘ป๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’•๐’†๐’„๐’•๐’Š๐’—๐’† ๐’“๐’†๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’•๐’” ๐‘จ๐’๐’๐’‚’๐’” ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’…๐’” ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’„๐’Œ ๐’•๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’“.

And as Anna begins to learn more about Zoe through locals who mistake her for the missing girl, friends and news articles, Anna begins to fall deeper and deeper into the intricacies and mysteries surrounding the case. And to a point where secrets, truth, lies and blurred lines begin to reveal themselves.

“๐‘ฐ๐’ ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’† ๐’”๐’Ž๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’š. ๐‘จ๐’‡๐’•๐’†๐’“ ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฐ’๐’… ๐’…๐’๐’๐’†. ๐‘ฐ๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’‚๐’ ๐’‚๐’„๐’„๐’Š๐’…๐’†๐’๐’•, ๐’ƒ๐’–๐’•…

๐‘ฐ ๐‘ฒ๐’Š๐’๐’๐’†๐’… ๐’๐’๐’† ๐‘บ๐’‘๐’‚๐’๐’๐’”.”

This shit gets a liiiiiittle crazy.

From the beginning, Anna starts dropping little hints about her life back home. It consists of a lot of partying and activities that fuzzy up the mind, and gives the reader an overwhelming sense that she is running from something. Murder, you say?! Hmmm…maybe so. But what’s really interesting about Anna’s character is that you never really get a solid read on her. She’s a bit of an enigma shrouded in hazy darkness, and it seems as if only the top few layers of her are pulled away. She’s like an onion…you know the saying.

But what really started to intrigue me about Anna, besides her need to leave her past behaviors behind, was her constant forgetfulness.

Here is a girl who obviously isn’t a hardcore drug user, and sure…she seems to have a bit of a pull towards the bottles of alcohol that she notices, but nothing to suggest she has a serious problem with substances. Which is the only reason I was coming up with for why she would be forgetting things randomly, to the point where the little girl she was nannying was constantly reminding her of conversations and clearly exasperated for having to do so. Obviously there’s a rhyme and a reason for this odd behavior, but the way it is executed had me swooning.

Kit Frick was meant to write mystery thrillers. She knows how to create an eerie yet familiar personality in a character that feels authentic, but has ever so slightly had sprinkles of slight paranoia and hysteria woven in to make the reader question the sanity of the MC. And not only does she make the reader both trust and question Anna, but she adds in other multiple characters that feel innocent and guilty all at once.

“๐’€๐’๐’– ๐’”๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’๐’… ๐’ˆ๐’,” ๐‘ช๐’‚๐’…๐’†๐’ ๐’”๐’‚๐’š๐’” ๐’‚๐’” ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’‚๐’๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’…๐’š ๐’•๐’–๐’“๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’•๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’“๐’…๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’๐’๐’“, ๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’…๐’š ๐’•๐’ ๐’๐’†๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐‘พ๐’Š๐’๐’…๐’†๐’“๐’Ž๐’†๐’“๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’“๐’†๐’•๐’–๐’“๐’. ๐‘ด๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐‘ท๐’‚๐’Š๐’”๐’๐’†๐’š ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•. ๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’‘๐’๐’‚๐’„๐’† ๐ข๐ฌ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’–๐’๐’•๐’†๐’…. ๐‘ต๐’๐’• ๐’ƒ๐’š ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’†๐’‚๐’…, ๐’ƒ๐’–๐’• ๐’ƒ๐’š ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‡๐’๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’š ๐’”๐’†๐’„๐’“๐’†๐’•๐’” ๐’๐’‡ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ.”

I’ll be honest, I had no idea who in the hell the murderer was until the murderer was actually revealed. And even then, I didn’t believe it. There are SO MANY characters who are perfect suspects and have clear motives. SO MANY characters who act strangely and suspiciously. Who seem to always be covering things up or sweeping clues into a rolled up rug and throwing it into the ocean.

Its all.

Very.

Suspish.

But isn’t that what we love? To be hit at the knees and have a bag pulled over our heads? And in true murder mystery form, we get to play detective alongside the characters. Throughout the story the POV switches over to Martina Green and her podcasts episode transcripts where she is trying to find out what happened to Zoe. She discusses police reports, insider information from the family, possible suspects, and even points the finger at the boyfriend.

Because it’s always the boyfriend.

“๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’ƒ๐’๐’š ๐’Š๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’•๐’“๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’“, ๐’ƒ๐’–๐’• ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’๐’Š๐’‘๐’‘๐’†๐’“๐’š ๐’Ž๐’๐’Ž๐’†๐’๐’• ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’”๐’†๐’† ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’†๐’” ๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’†๐’“๐’•๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ, ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’…๐’‚๐’“๐’Œ๐’†๐’”๐’• ๐’”๐’†๐’„๐’“๐’†๐’•๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’…๐’†๐’†๐’‘๐’†๐’”๐’• ๐’‡๐’†๐’‚๐’“๐’” ๐’๐’‚๐’Š๐’… ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’Š๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’”๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’‚๐’Š๐’“.”

Though of course, nothing is ever as it seems, is it?

And without giving anything away, I just need to comment on the ending. Sure I was totally blindsided, but do I realllyyyyyy believe that ending?

Meh.

It’s questionable.

I felt like some conversations and relationships weren’t tied up. I wanted a convo between the murderer and…a prominent character to take place, but it didn’t. I wanted to see the TRUE feelings and thoughts of the murderer, but all I got was the confession and facts. But then again…that is the most authentic way to end a story like this, isn’t it? When do we ever really get the full details on murders and heinous crimes?

Maybe if it involves Ed Kemper, but he’s a unicorn.

Anyways.

This mystery kicked ass and finally got me out of my reading slump. It may be because there was murder in it, which seems to be my happy place lately (don’t you fucking judge me) and the only genre to keep me interested. But I will say, that little situation with Star and the conclusion of that was a bit…anti-climatic, no? Like realllyyy? That’s how that ties up? With a slapped on band-aid and a shrug?

Oh okay.

 

4 Stars

 

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Book Review: Accidental by Alex Richards

Accidental

Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the publisher, Bloomsbury, for an honest review.

Genre: YA/Contemporary

Plot: Johanna has had more than enough trauma in her life. She lost her mom in a car accident, and her father went AWOL when Johanna was just a baby. At sixteen, life is steady, boring . . . maybe even stifling, since she’s being raised by her grandparents who never talk about their daughter, her mother Mandy.

Then he comes back: Robert Newsome, Johanna’s father, bringing memories and pictures of Mandy. But that’s not all he shares. A tragic car accident didn’t kill Mandy–it was Johanna, who at two years old, accidentally shot her own mother with an unsecured gun.

Now Johanna has to sort through it all–the return of her absentee father, her grandparents’ lies, her part in her mother’s death. But no one, neither her loyal best friends nor her sweet new boyfriend, can help her forgive them. Most of all, can she ever find a way to forgive herself?

In a searing, ultimately uplifting story, debut author Alex Richards tackles a different side of the important issue that has galvanized teens across our country.

Opinion:

“๐‘จ๐’๐’ ๐’˜๐’†๐’†๐’Œ ๐’๐’๐’๐’ˆ, ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐‘จ๐’Ž๐’†๐’“๐’Š๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’‡๐’๐’‚๐’ˆ ๐’๐’ ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’‡๐’“๐’๐’๐’• ๐’๐’‚๐’˜๐’ ๐’‡๐’๐’‚๐’‘๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ๐’“๐’Š๐’๐’š ๐’Š๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’…. ๐‘พ๐’†๐’Š๐’“๐’… ๐’‰๐’๐’˜ ๐‘ฐ ๐’๐’†๐’—๐’†๐’“ ๐’–๐’”๐’†๐’… ๐’•๐’ ๐’๐’๐’•๐’Š๐’„๐’† ๐’Š๐’• ๐’–๐’‘ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“๐’† – ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’‰๐’–๐’ˆ๐’†, ๐’…๐’–๐’“๐’‚๐’ƒ๐’๐’† ๐’‚๐’… ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’๐’–๐’“ ๐’‘๐’‚๐’•๐’“๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’Š๐’”๐’Ž.
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๐‘ฐ ๐’˜๐’๐’๐’…๐’†๐’“ ๐’Š๐’‡ ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’‚๐’๐’…๐’‘๐’‚๐’“๐’†๐’๐’•๐’” ๐’๐’˜๐’๐’†๐’… ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’‡๐’๐’‚๐’ˆ ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’‡๐’๐’“๐’† ๐’๐’“ ๐’‚๐’‡๐’•๐’†๐’“ ๐‘ฐ ๐’”๐’‰๐’๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’๐’๐’†๐’… ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Š๐’“ ๐’…๐’‚๐’–๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’†๐’“.”

“๐‘ฉ๐’๐’Š๐’๐’Œ ๐’•๐’˜๐’Š๐’„๐’† ๐’Š๐’‡ ๐’š๐’๐’–’๐’“๐’† ๐’•๐’“๐’‚๐’‘๐’‘๐’†๐’… ๐’Š๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’‰๐’๐’”๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’† ๐’”๐’Š๐’•๐’–๐’‚๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’.”

Johanna has been raised by her grandparents for most of her life, due to her father bailing and her mother dying in a car accident when she was almost three. But at sixteen, Johanna feels like she’s beginning to forget her mother entirely and it doesn’t help that her grandparents refuse to talk about her. But life for Johanna isn’t so bad. She has two amazing best friends who are more like sisters, and the new kid at school seems to have his eye on her. But when Jo gets a letter in the mail from her father who is wishing to reconnect, her seemingly ordinary life implodes. With her father’s sudden reappearance in her life comes the truth of her childhood and the real cause of death of her mother. Because it wasn’t a car accident that killed Johanna’s mother…

…it was her.

Deep breath, baby angels.

It’s a heavy hitter.

“๐‘พ๐’๐’“๐’…๐’” ๐’‡๐’๐’š ๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’๐’‡ ๐‘น๐’๐’ƒ๐’†๐’“๐’•’๐’” ๐’Ž๐’๐’–๐’•๐’‰ ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’ƒ๐’๐’ƒ ๐’‚๐’“๐’๐’–๐’๐’… ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’“๐’๐’๐’Ž ๐’๐’Š๐’Œ๐’† ๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’•๐’”. ๐‘ป๐’‰๐’†๐’š’๐’“๐’† ๐’‡๐’‚๐’Ž๐’Š๐’๐’Š๐’‚๐’“ ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’…๐’” – ๐’…๐’Š๐’„๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’๐’‚๐’“๐’š ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’…๐’” – ๐’ƒ๐’–๐’• ๐’๐’๐’๐’† ๐’๐’‡ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž ๐’‡๐’Š๐’• ๐’•๐’๐’ˆ๐’†๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“ ๐’Š๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’š ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’–๐’๐’…๐’†๐’“๐’”๐’•๐’‚๐’๐’…. ๐‘ฐ๐’•’๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’•๐’๐’๐’… ๐’•๐’ ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’Š๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’Ž๐’‚๐’“๐’† ๐’๐’“ ๐’”๐’๐’Ž๐’† ๐’‘๐’‚๐’“๐’‚๐’๐’๐’†๐’ ๐’–๐’๐’Š๐’—๐’†๐’“๐’”๐’†, ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’—๐’Š๐’”๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’”๐’†๐’†๐’Ž๐’” ๐’•๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’๐’‚๐’„๐’Œ๐’†๐’ ๐’Š๐’ ๐’“๐’†๐’”๐’‘๐’๐’๐’”๐’†.”

The gun control topic is a controversial one, and with this being a book that centers around gun violence, be prepared for moments that may differ from your personal opinions. But for those of you who are weary that this will be a “preachy” YA Contemporary, rest assured that both sides to this debate are represented and it’s dealt with in a delicate manner that doesn’t take away from what this story really is – a coming-of-age tale about trauma, forgiveness, growth and self-love.

Accidental is an emotional and surreal story that centers on how common it is for children to come across easily accessible guns in their homes. At two and a half, while her father was out of town, Johanna and her mother were taking a nap when Johanna awakens and begins to wander. She finds her father’s gun under her parent’s bed, and ends up pulling the trigger and shooting her mother in the chest – killing her.

But upon the reader meeting Johanna, we learn that she has no idea of what took place when she was a toddler. At sixteen, Jo is a typical teenager living in Santa Fe and going to a prestigious high school. She has two quirky, spirited and vivacious best friends and she spends her time sewing her own clothes and slinging sassy comebacks at idiotic guys in her class. She’s a lively and charismatic character from the start, describing the pains of living with her very religious grandparents, but also expressing a deep love for them both.

But the ease in Jo’s life quickly changes with the reemergence of her estranged father, and his confession of Jo and Amanda’s truth.

“๐‘ป๐’˜๐’ ๐’„๐’š๐’Ž๐’ƒ๐’‚๐’๐’”, ๐’„๐’“๐’‚๐’”๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’ ๐’“๐’†๐’‘๐’†๐’‚๐’• –

๐‘ญ๐‘จ๐‘ป๐‘ฏ๐‘ฌ๐‘น!
๐‘ญ๐‘จ๐‘ป๐‘ฏ๐‘ฌ๐‘น!
๐‘ญ๐‘จ๐‘ป๐‘ฏ๐‘ฌ๐‘น!”

The reason this story packs such a punch, is because the situation could have happened to any of us. It was incredibly easy to slide into Jo’s shoes and understand the confusion, sadness, regret, hurt, horror and anger she felt when the truth of her mother was revealed. How devastating it is when something so horrible can become your reality, and the hurt that comes with it when you don’t have a support system at home to guide you through it.

“๐‘บ๐’, ๐’Š๐’๐’”๐’•๐’†๐’‚๐’…, ๐‘ฐ ๐’ˆ๐’. ๐‘พ๐’Š๐’•๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’”๐’‚๐’š๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’ˆ๐’๐’๐’…๐’ƒ๐’š๐’†, ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰๐’๐’–๐’• ๐’•๐’†๐’๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž ๐’˜๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐‘ฐ’๐’๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’‰๐’๐’Ž๐’†. ๐‘ฐ ๐’”๐’Š๐’Ž๐’‘๐’๐’š ๐’”๐’‘๐’Š๐’ ๐’‚๐’“๐’๐’–๐’๐’… ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’”๐’•๐’‚๐’๐’Œ ๐’‚๐’„๐’“๐’๐’”๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‘๐’‚๐’“๐’Œ๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’“๐’… ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’„๐’‚๐’“, ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’๐’๐’† ๐’•๐’Š๐’Ž๐’† ๐’•๐’“๐’š๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’Œ ๐’•๐’๐’ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’“๐’… ๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‡๐’‚๐’„๐’• ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฎ๐’“๐’‚๐’ ๐’”๐’ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ๐’๐’š ๐’๐’†๐’• ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’ˆ๐’. ๐‘ป๐’‰๐’† ๐’‡๐’‚๐’„๐’• ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’š๐’ƒ๐’† ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’๐’๐’• ๐’˜๐’๐’“๐’•๐’‰ ๐’‡๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’‡๐’๐’“ ๐’‚๐’๐’š๐’Ž๐’๐’“๐’†.”

 

When Jo reveals to her grandparents that she knows the truth about her mother, they still refuse to speak about it. They brush it under the rug, preferring silence and forced indifference. And though it is shocking that they lied to her about how her mother died…I don’t blame them for the decision they made in protecting her.

But the way they handle Jo’s trauma and their own is…suffocating.

There are no pictures on the walls or in photo albums of Jo’s mother. None of her mementos are displayed and she is never brought up or talked about. So Jo is left feeling as if she cannot speak about this woman she has so much love for, but is starting to forget. This woman she so desperately craves was in her life and guiding her through her teenage years.

This woman who she believes she murdered.

“๐‘ฏ๐’† ๐’”๐’„๐’๐’๐’‘๐’” ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’“๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’Š๐’… ๐’ƒ๐’๐’…๐’š ๐’•๐’๐’˜๐’‚๐’“๐’… ๐’‰๐’Š๐’Ž, ๐’•๐’Š๐’ˆ๐’‰๐’• ๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’ ๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’„๐’‰๐’†๐’”๐’•. ๐‘บ๐’ ๐’„๐’๐’๐’”๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’‰๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’ƒ๐’†๐’‚๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ, ๐’†๐’‚๐’„๐’‰ ๐’ƒ๐’–-๐’ƒ๐’–๐’Ž ๐’ƒ๐’–-๐’ƒ๐’–๐’Ž ๐’ƒ๐’–-๐’ƒ๐’–๐’Ž ๐’•๐’–๐’“๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Š๐’๐’•๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’ˆ๐’–๐’๐’”๐’‰๐’๐’•. ๐‘ถ๐’๐’† ๐’‚๐’‡๐’•๐’†๐’“ ๐’‚๐’๐’๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“.

๐‘ฉ๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ.

๐‘ฉ๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ.

๐‘ฉ๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ.”

Thankfully, Jo has two epic best friends that I wish upon all wishes and stars that I could have in my life.

“๐‘ป๐’‰๐’† ๐’…๐’๐’๐’“ ๐’„๐’๐’Š๐’„๐’Œ๐’” ๐’”๐’‰๐’–๐’•. ๐‘ป๐’˜๐’ ๐’ˆ๐’†๐’๐’•๐’๐’† ๐’”๐’†๐’•๐’” ๐’๐’‡ ๐’‡๐’†๐’†๐’• ๐’•๐’Š๐’‘๐’•๐’๐’† ๐’‚๐’„๐’“๐’๐’”๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’“๐’๐’๐’Ž, ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’๐’…๐’š ๐’Ž๐’Š๐’”๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐‘ซ๐’‚๐’Š๐’”๐’š ๐’‘๐’†๐’“๐’‡๐’–๐’Ž๐’† ๐’˜๐’‚๐’‡๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Š๐’ ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž. ๐‘ณ๐’†๐’‚๐’‰ ๐’„๐’–๐’“๐’๐’” ๐’–๐’‘ ๐’๐’ ๐’๐’๐’† ๐’”๐’Š๐’…๐’† ๐’๐’‡ ๐’Ž๐’†, ๐‘ฎ๐’‚๐’ƒ๐’ƒ๐’š ๐’๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’“. ๐‘บ๐’˜๐’†๐’‚๐’•๐’†๐’“๐’” ๐’˜๐’‚๐’“๐’Ž, ๐’”๐’Œ๐’Š๐’ ๐’„๐’๐’๐’…. ๐‘ด๐’š ๐’•๐’“๐’–๐’”๐’•๐’š ๐‘น๐’๐’•๐’•๐’˜๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’†๐’“๐’” ๐’…๐’๐’’๐’• ๐’”๐’‚๐’š ๐’‚๐’๐’š๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ.”

These girls are the rocks that keep Jo from slipping down a river of depression and deep self-loathing. They are fiercely loyal and understanding, go out of their way to ensure that their friend is cared for and heard, and refuse to leave her side. Their love for one another had me hardcore tearing up and cooing throughout the story. These two girls make this story.

“๐‘ฐ ๐’”๐’’๐’–๐’†๐’†๐’›๐’† ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’†๐’š๐’†๐’” ๐’”๐’‰๐’–๐’• ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’ ๐’๐’‘๐’†๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’†๐’Ž ๐’˜๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐’‚ ๐’”๐’‰๐’‚๐’“๐’‘ ๐’Š๐’๐’‰๐’‚๐’๐’†, ๐’๐’๐’•๐’Š๐’„๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’‚ ๐’ˆ๐’–๐’-๐’”๐’‰๐’‚๐’‘๐’†๐’… ๐’„๐’“๐’‚๐’„๐’Œ ๐’‚๐’ƒ๐’๐’—๐’† ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’„๐’๐’๐’”๐’†๐’• ๐’…๐’๐’๐’“. ๐‘ฌ๐’—๐’†๐’ ๐‘ด๐’Š๐’๐’’๐’” ๐’„๐’†๐’Š๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’Œ๐’๐’๐’˜๐’” ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐‘ฐ’๐’—๐’† ๐’…๐’๐’๐’†.”

“๐‘ด๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’‡๐’“๐’๐’Ž ๐’‰๐’Š๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š.”

Another big character in this story is Milo – the new boy in school and Jo’s new boyfriend. Their romance is sweet and their chemistry is sizzling, but more importantly, Milo is another person in Jo’s life that she can lean on for support. Though he doesn’t have as big a role as Leah and Gabby, and his personality doesn’t shine through as much as the girls, his own troubles with his father gives a level of understanding to Milo and Jo that can’t be emulated. And no matter how dark Jo’s life gets, Milo is always there to help her see the light.

“๐‘ฐ๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’‡๐’–๐’, ๐’ƒ๐’–๐’• ๐‘ฐ’๐’Ž ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’๐’… ๐’๐’‡ ๐’…๐’‚๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ˆ๐’†๐’… ๐’ˆ๐’๐’๐’…๐’”.”

“๐‘ต๐’๐’• ๐’…๐’‚๐’Ž๐’‚๐’ˆ๐’†๐’…,” ๐’‰๐’† ๐’˜๐’‰๐’Š๐’”๐’‘๐’†๐’“๐’”. “๐‘ฑ๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’ˆ๐’๐’๐’….”

For the first half of this book, the reader watches Jo slowly spiral into anger and a sort of manic state as she tries to cope with her past. And at sixteen, it’s not exactly easy to have control over your emotions. But the person Jo turns into in the second half of the book was irritating. She was aggressive and constantly throwing tantrums, stomping her foot and having explosive reactions to the littlest things. Of course, this does feel authentic to a young teenager going through some serious trauma – but it was still exhausting and a turn-off.

And how Johanna works towards getting a mural painted at her school to shed light on gun violence was also…cringey. By this point Jo is full-blown immature and slightly ridiculous, so it was a bit harder to get through. And though this was a gut-flipping story, I was really wanting more emotion from Jo because I didn’t feel like I got a true sense of the chaos that was brewing inside her. She had huge reactions and panic attacks, but I wanted more description into how hurt and lost she felt inside.

But the real driving force in this story is obviously gun safety, but also self-acceptance and the need to work through trauma.

When Jo’s father renters her life, he brings a few secrets with him that he slowly reveals along the way, and they’re tragic. It broke my heart how Jo was constantly let down by these really big parental figures in her life. But, imagine it. Not only are you the cause for your mother dying, but you are also the spitting image of a daughter and lover that has been lost. Nothing about this situation is easier or less horrible for anyone involved.

Accidental is a powerful and heartbreaking story, but a necessary one.

No matter what stance you take on this topic, trust me when I say, you need to read this.

“๐‘ฐ ๐’๐’๐’—๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–, ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’…๐’…๐’. ๐‘ฉ๐’š๐’†.”

“๐‘ฐ ๐’๐’๐’—๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–, ๐’Œ๐’Š๐’…๐’…๐’.”

“๐‘ฐ ๐’๐’๐’—๐’† ๐’š๐’๐’–.”

 

4.5 Stars

 

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Book Reviews · New Releases

Book Review: Girl, Serpent, Thorn by Melissa Bashardoust

Girl Serpent

Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the publisher, Flatiron Books, for an honest review.

Genre: YA/Fantasy/Retelling

Plot: There was and there was not, as all stories begin, a princess cursed to be poisonous to the touch. But for Soraya, who has lived her life hidden away, apart from her family, safe only in her gardens, itโ€™s not just a story.

As the day of her twin brotherโ€™s wedding approaches, Soraya must decide if sheโ€™s willing to step outside of the shadows for the first time. Below in the dungeon is a demon who holds knowledge that she craves, the answer to her freedom. And above is a young man who isnโ€™t afraid of her, whose eyes linger not with fear, but with an understanding of who she is beneath the poison.

Soraya thought she knew her place in the world, but when her choices lead to consequences she never imagined, she begins to question who she is and who she is becoming…human or demon. Princess or monster.

Opinion:

“I am both the Sleeping Beauty and the enchanted castle; the princess drowses in the castle of flesh.”

-Angela Carter, Vampirella

Girl, Serpent, Thorn is a heavily Persian influenced mythology retelling with elements from classic fairy tales like “Sleeping Beauty“, “Rapunzel” and โ€œRappacciniโ€™s Daughter.โ€ It tells the story of a young Princess who was cursed with the touch of poison after her birth, and has since been hidden away in one of her family’s castles to keep her ailment secret. But when the royal family returns to her castle for the season, they bring with them a captured div – a demon who tried to kill the princess’s brother – whom they are keeping locked in the dungeons. For Princess Soraya, this is her only chance to find a way out of the curse that has caused her to live a life without human contact. But Soraya quickly learns that nothing is given for free, and consequences weigh heavily.

“There was and there was not.”

 

This unique retelling has been at the top of my TBR list for months. I originally found it on Goodreads while in one of a 3-hour book pit of browsing and knew it was going to be a top read of 2020. And though this story started out great, with rich culture spilling through the pages and a luscious world wrought with magic and danger, I felt myself begin to drift about 25% in.

It was an enjoyable read, but I was expecting an extra emotional punch and a little more excitement.

I hate to say it, but I was a bit bored for the middle and end of this book. I have been having trouble with YA Fantasy lately, so maybe it’s just me, but I just wasn’t as invested in the story as I wanted to be. I think a big part of this could be that the story went in a direction I wasn’t initially expecting it to. I guess I was expecting a “Throne of Glass” meets “Ash Princess“, and got more of a “Damsel” vibe that I wasn’t really feeling.

Soraya was an intriguing character at first, but her ‘doe in headlights‘ act started to get old pretty quickly. It bothered me how fine she was with her family practically shunning her and shoving her into a castle like Quasimodo, barely visiting her or even trying to communicate with her. I wanted her to show some semblance of anger or a grudge for her treatment, but it seemed innocence and being too trusting were her only major driving traits.

I also wanted her poisonous curse to be portrayed a bit darker.

Obviously this story is going to be written how the author wants and with their own preference to overall lightness or darkness in terms of overall theme, but I was hoping this was going to be a grittier and more raw tale. I wanted to really dive into the way this curse made Soraya feel. How the solitude and isolation has contributed to her personality and thoughts, and what flaws it causes her to develop. Yes, the girl is naive. But this book left her feeling like a Disney princess, rather than a relatable female who has been thrust into horrible circumstances.

The romance is a love triangle, and it was sweet and exciting in parts, but the original start between Soraya and Azad was…odd. I have a really hard time with insta-love and insta-intimacy. Upon their first actual meeting Azad basically professes his love and is shockingly not at all freaked out that one touch from Soraya will kill him instantly. He starts touching her hair (how did you know that her hair wasn’t also poisonous?!) and basically tells her how he’s always imaged being/rescuing/marrying her…? And Soraya instantly meets him halfway. What? This just felt so unbelievable for me.

I think the best part of this book is the world building and nod to Persian culture. Though this world isn’t as crazy outlandish and complex as some other YA Fantasies, it is perfectly detailed and the Arabian styled setting is described beautifully. Though of course more would have been so appreciated, the amount given is perfect for the reader to visualize and enjoy the tale.

By the end of Girl, Serpent, Thorn I was pleased with what happened, but I did find it a bit boring and somewhat predictable. I think I was just expecting a different story than what I got. It seems the majority of readers really loved this, so I would definitely read it and come to your own conclusion.

3 Stars

 

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